Ok the Truth is….. I used to start my About section like this: For some time now I have been wandering…. lost and searching for something. I’m driven to find Truth, knowledge and wisdom in daily life and I hope that finding those will help me figure out my next steps.
But, TIME has past, and I have CHANGED. I have realized that I’m not wandering aimlessly through my life. I am not lost, I’m choosing many paths I go down. Though, I am still searching daily to find the Truth, Knowledge and Wisdom. I have realized that my mental and physical travels have taken me much farther than I would have owned up to years ago.
I am still trying to find out ……What I want to do when I grow up!…even though I’m already grown. I’m a woman, wife, mother, friend, daughter, and sister. But who do I want to be?
Who Am I!
Family of course is my everything. My two girls and husband are my sun. I have a dog Sirius, he is a crazy Golden-doodle with a heart of gold, but no manners at all. We life in Zionsville, Indiana a small town outside of Indianapolis that we moved to for great schools and so that I could pretend I lived in Stars Hollow. I have Autoimmune diseases that keep me on my toes. Most people would never notice or know about them, but like many people in this world I struggle and juggle them daily.
For many years I had a career, and when I decided to stay home with my littles…the transition was difficult. I was scared I’d get lazy, but eventually being home became all I knew. Supporting my kids through their younger years and first stages of elementary school was and is important. I made it my job to volunteer with the school.
I wanted to be there to help with friends, homework and activities. I was fortunate enough to be able to have that opportunity. More than anything I got to know moms and dads…I put myself out there like I had never done before to attempt to build a community, a village.
Though I am a social person, I am not great at forming new relationships. I can talk to anyone for a little while, but making true friendships is hard for me. Brene Brown says that you have to lean into the discomfort. I remember watching her TED Talk and thinking this would be one of my new mantras.
“Lean into the discomfort when you feel like dropping and running,”
I would tell this to myself when something was outside of my comfort zone…and slowly it has become my mantra as a person, a parent and a friend.
“What our brain does not take into consideration is the need for discomfort and vulnerability in real relationship,”
Learning so much from the people I’ve met over the years, I have found some of my best friends. I have learned different perspective’s on life and child rearing. Community, friendship and honesty are precious gifts. This journey has changed me. I’m a better friend now than I ever was before, and hopefully I will continue to be.
I am also a better person, I’m sure of it because when you get to know lots of different people and see how they live and appreciate your differences it allows you to see possibilities. I see Hope in the people around.
So back to what I want to do when I grow up.
So back to what I want to do when I grow up. I’m still not sure. I know I don’t want to go backward. I don’t want to do what I have done before.
Since quitting the corporate world and being an at home mom, I’ve been a manager at the local pool, an IA at my kids school, a customer support specialist for a local consulting company, a PTO communications board member, volunteered at my church and this blog.
I’m good outside my Comfort Zone, so I’m ready to change my world again. I’m ready to find the next thing.
Where am I supposed to be? Who knows…but what I do know is that I crave genuine truth. I crave knowledge. For a very long time I craved simplicity and organization, but I’ve learned for me that life is just messy and trying to push against that is frustrating. I’ve decided to try my best to ride the wave and keep my head above water.
Finding truth in daily life is important to me. I continue to look for knowledge that could help me and my family navigate life.
I long for a job or career or passion that might bring me joy while allowing me to also grow and be with my family. I keep having this feeling that I’m meant to do more, but I’m not sure what that is. I like to write, and I like to learn and so that is what I’m going to do and hopefully you will do it with me.
Let’s find Truth. To bloom into what we are meant to eventually be. To gain wisdom as we grow. I’m not sure what my greater purpose is, but I believe God is with me and if I’m searching, leaning into the discomfort of life and moving forward I might just be Blooming Wisdom